Unbounded

it's been a very fruitful two years for me to serve in sms (samahan ng mga mag-aaral sa sikolohiya), the psychology org in my college.

ive never really seen myself doing extracurricular activities again in college (basically i hung around with bad apples in my first two years in college and wasted my potential), because i was kinda active in highschool.

as i reminisce about my higschool life while sitting on my swivel chair in my room, i cannot help but remember my good times and bad in my teen years (especially after i've had a friends marathon. imagine, three days of nothing but friends, and still i havent finished the third season.)

looking back, i now admit that i was really a temperamental kid back then. moodswings really defined who i am. there are days when i was this comical person, and there are days when i have depressive episodes - especially on my third year.

i miss writing and debating. i was the development comminications editor of my higschool organ in my third and fourth year, and was also the literary and layout editor in my fourth year. journalism kinda really ran through my vein heh. and to think that when college came all i did was to write technical papers for research. i blame my laziness for my writing retardation. !@#$

for a time during my third year, i was the captain of the now defunct JCA debating team. we werent really good, but i still consider being in the team and being the captain bragging rights heheh =b. we joined in the CMLI and got to the quarterfinals only to be beaten by poveda. its not bad considering this was our first (and last i think) to make a debating team for our highschool.

on my senior year, i was still active in my hs organ (balancing my 3 duties. i really wondered why i wasnt transfered to the opinions section. that's where the real fun is.), and did more layouting. we joined the philippine and international cyberfair competitions for that year and won gold for both of them (yey!). i also did the layout of your hs yearbook.

back then, it really didnt matter to me if what i did was crap or great, if its tiring or clerical. what mattered to me was that it was fun. back then all that mattered to me if it was intrinsically motivating for me or not. only now do i really wish that ive really thought about that when i went to college.

the only thing that i did in college was be in our college assembly and did some lousy layouting and designing work. there was no growth (what else is there to expect in the college assembly? for me, its serves nothing but as a stepping stone for student council aspirants), and what's worse, my grade really suffered. i left and did some rethinking because i really felt i was suckered to serve in that mediocre rathole of a college assembly (at least what i felt for my immediate superiors. the assembly president was great).

when i was in my late sophomore year the upcoming president personally asked me (i dont know if its for desperation or not. either way, never did i once looked up for his capabilities. yeah you heard me right) if i was interested in applying for officership. i politely declined. "not yet" i said to myself. finally, i applied in my incoming senior year and became the executive vice president.

if were to redo everything in highschool and in college, i wouldnt change a thing in higschool. as for college, i would have applied again for the college organ or literary organ, and for the yearbook organ.

but no regrets. except for being in the college assembly.